Obligatory Whiny V-Day Post
Feb. 14th, 2006 03:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
newnumber6Cut for those people who've already read enough of these...
Yeah, it's Valentine's Day. At least this year, the crushing depression of being alone and likely to remain that way the rest of my life is mitigated somewhat by the draining malaise of being sick now for almost a week.
Still, bleh. Not fun being alone. And I know it's almost all my own fault, but that doesn't seem to make it any easier to change things and I'm unable to even trick myself into not being bothered by it. Maybe I should find somewhere to do more RPing, then at least perhaps I could live vicariously through a fake romance. That sometimes helps a bit. Still, I must give a royal fist-shake to the world on this day, especially for filling the airwaves with love-themed shows all over the place these last few days.
On the sick thing I go back and forth a little... sometimes I'm fine except coughing up a lung, at other times I feel like I'm dizzy and may throw up if I stay upright for too long. Generally having trouble keeping focus on stuff, so have gotten very little of anything done that I planned to, whether that be self-amusement things, writing, or catching up on e-mail replying. I've eaten about 4 whole cloves of garlic in the last 4 days (for those of you tempted to draw a connection between that any my romantic troubles, resist! No, it's not my usual habit, it was an experiment and I haven't gone anywhere of note in those four days anyway) but the cold (if thats what it is) is showing no sign of letting up.
Yeah, it's Valentine's Day. At least this year, the crushing depression of being alone and likely to remain that way the rest of my life is mitigated somewhat by the draining malaise of being sick now for almost a week.
Still, bleh. Not fun being alone. And I know it's almost all my own fault, but that doesn't seem to make it any easier to change things and I'm unable to even trick myself into not being bothered by it. Maybe I should find somewhere to do more RPing, then at least perhaps I could live vicariously through a fake romance. That sometimes helps a bit. Still, I must give a royal fist-shake to the world on this day, especially for filling the airwaves with love-themed shows all over the place these last few days.
On the sick thing I go back and forth a little... sometimes I'm fine except coughing up a lung, at other times I feel like I'm dizzy and may throw up if I stay upright for too long. Generally having trouble keeping focus on stuff, so have gotten very little of anything done that I planned to, whether that be self-amusement things, writing, or catching up on e-mail replying. I've eaten about 4 whole cloves of garlic in the last 4 days (for those of you tempted to draw a connection between that any my romantic troubles, resist! No, it's not my usual habit, it was an experiment and I haven't gone anywhere of note in those four days anyway) but the cold (if thats what it is) is showing no sign of letting up.
